On Being female... An Introduction

My marriage is ending. It wasn't something he or I saw coming, nothing that happened over time, as we were together as man and wife less than a year, we just didn't grow apart. In fact we were ripped apart the day I chose to leave him. My choice. His choice was to continue being abusive. My aim is to share what God has laid on my heart as I struggle to understand what it means to be female according to His design and creation as well through my struggles with sin. Something I have noticed in the past four months since I have been separated, is the constant wrestling in my life of role vs. design. God designed me as a woman and therefore with certain qualities, yet I seem to cling to the world and the Christian definition of what my role is rather than my design. Western women define themselves (and one another) based on what they do. God doesn't revoke our female-ness based on such things, He instead created us as women. I am afraid I can tell you better what I should DO rather than who I AM. God is urging me to explore that. This blog will be the messy documentation of that journey, I will include scripture, what works I am reading as well as my own messy musings and experiences. Givens: we live in a fallen world, I am a sinner, others sin against me, I need Christ and I rely on grace. Philippians 1:6 being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;